CHANGE

Change. Change can be so beautiful, but very difficult. The past six months, I started my journey to find my birth family. Not only did I find both my mother and father. I found many other family members. When I found my parents it was extremely exciting, but honestly, it brought up so many different […]

WHAT IF IM NEVER FOUND

Throughout my entire life I have wondered about my birth family. I have always gravitated towards my birth mom. I long to know who this woman is, the woman that gave me life. I want to know every little detail about her. I wonder if I ever cross her mind. I wonder if she had […]

HIS CHILDREN

In the busyness of life, I find it easy to feel as though I am losing myself. Although I am doing things I enjoy, such as hanging out with my best friend or working, which is really all I’ve done this summer, I still feel incredibly lost. I have all these distractions around me constantly. If […]

WHAT LONELINESS DRIVES US TO DO

Loneliness is usually described as the feeling when you are alone, but truth is, you can be in a crowd full of people and still feel alone. That’s what weird about loneliness. Personally, when I felt the most alone is when I had a boyfriend and a lot of friends. Why is that? How can […]

ABORTION

I started writing this post last week. I was gonna give answers to everyone’s reasons why people should get abortions. Then I realized, I don’t have all the answers, but I know why I believe what I believe. Abortion is murder. Yes, a “fetus” is just a clump of cells, but so are full grown […]

LOSING YOURSELF IN PURSUIT OF CHRIST

I have really struggled more recently with feeling like I’m losing myself. The biggest reason i’ve felt this way is because I lost my 99% of my friends. I tend to find my identity in how many friends I have, how good of a friend I am, and how many people “need” me in their […]

LETS TALK ABOUT SUICIDE

In honor of National Suicide Prevention Month, I would like to talk about some difficult topics. In this post, I will be discussing suicide and self harm in depth. Did you know that in 2013 there was a study that stated that adoptees are 4 times more likely to commit suicide? Why does this fact […]

TO MY OLD SELF

Ashley, Quit worrying about what everyone else says. You’re beautiful. It doesn’t matter what people say about you. You don’t have to look like a model. God created you perfect. Stop hurting yourself. Stop cutting. Your body is sacred. Stop thinking you’re not enough. You’re more than enough. Don’t try to be someone your not. Don’t […]

MEET MY ADOPTIVE MOM

If any of you have had the pleasure of meeting my mom aka the Kathy Billings, you know that she is the kindest person you know. She makes everyone feel at home when they meet her. She’s very funny and her comments on things can sometimes make me laugh. She has been my biggest supporter […]

MY “PERFECT” LIFE

About 9 months ago, I would like to think I had the perfect teenage life. I went where I wanted. I snuck out and partied with my friends. I got invited to everything. I had a boyfriend who I loved and he loved me. I had a perfect family. It was weird to me how […]