In the busyness of life, I find it easy to feel as though I am losing myself. Although I am doing things I enjoy, such as hanging out with my best friend or working, which is really all I’ve done this summer, I still feel incredibly lost. I have all these distractions around me constantly. If I’m not working, I’m out to dinner. If I’m not out to dinner I’m watching netflix. If I’m not watching netflix, I’m sleeping. Yes, these are okay things to do. It isn’t bad to work or hang out with friends or watch tv. Yet, it’s so easy to forget about what matters most.
I have had a very stressful summer. I’ve been working constantly. It hasn’t been to bad because I do like my job, but that feeling of loneliness has been coming back. I wonder how this could be true. I’m around people all the time. My job is to talk to people. I’ve gone through the motions before of feeling lonely, so why is this feeling back? Why do I not feel like myself. I’ve been angry, frustrated, stressed out. It’s sort of embarrassing to admit, but I have lost my closeness with the only person I need to be close with, Jesus.
For the first time in a long time, I actually opened my Bible and read. I didn’t want to do it. As I was reading, I wanted to read more and more. I wasn’t even sure where to start reading because it has been so long since I’ve spent time doing that, so I just opened my Bible up and it opened to John.
John 1:12 says “Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God.” This verse shows so much hope. We are the children of God. There’s no need to be angry or frustrated. We are literally Gods children. What a privilege! We brought into a very dark world. A world full of hurt, pain, and sin. Yet, there is hope. Although life is busy, I know how important it is to keep my eyes on what matters because without it, this life is impossible.