Loneliness is usually described as the feeling when you are alone, but truth is, you can be in a crowd full of people and still feel alone. That’s what weird about loneliness. Personally, when I felt the most alone is when I had a boyfriend and a lot of friends. Why is that? How can I be around people all the time that “love” me and still feel so lonely? It was only a momentary fix. I wasn’t focused on what would truly make me feel wanted. I wasn’t focused on the only One who truly wanted me for me. I looked for friends and boys approval.
To be completely honest, this is still a struggle I face every day. I tend to find my worth in my relationships. Mostly boys and friends. I often feel lonely when I don’t get the boy I wants attention or when my “friends” don’t invite me to things. This can easily slip into a deep path of putting your worth in others, which leads to loneliness, which ultimately leads to depression.
What I have realized, is that the only thing that will ever make me feel seen is God. He is the only one that will be with me no matter what. He knows everything about me. My deepest secret, my thoughts, and my mistakes and He still chooses me. He wants me even when I don’t want him. He wants me when no one else does. Thats one of the most beautiful things about Christianity.